A very happy Eid indeed :)

Assalamualaikum

(side note: I'm having trouble typing with my index finger because of the cut I got while cleaning the cans yesterday.. sigh.. so easily injured)


Alhamdulillah.
We are blessed with an opportunity to celebrate our eidul adha here in Cork for the.. emmm.. I think it's our 4th time now? And the best part about this year's eid is -- WE WALKED TO THE MOSQUE!

I know it's not really an achievement, many other people did that. But for me, that is my first time. And I feel sooo happy walking to the mosque and perform my Eid prayer with my housemates. I just love them :)

And alhamdulillah, last night we managed to prepare 2 dishes for our Raya Putlock - We made Laksam and Rendang Ayam. Alhamdulillah all turns out well (though there's a bit of drama in the beginning of not being able to get the right consistency of the batter, but we did well in the end biiznillah). And everything we made is super yummy and people liked it! alhamdulillah :)

O yeah, so back at the mosque. The khutbah reminds me of the things I really hate to do - sacrifice. Honestly, I don't like sacrificing because - I feel like I lose what I gave. And I don't like the feeling of losing something .. ( err prolly because I thought I have lost so much but in fact Allah has given me more ni'mah in return Alhamdulillah)

The khatib mentioned a story about Hajr and Ibrahim, and how they have to sacrifice. But Hajr was so clear that the instruction came from Allah - and she let it all happen. She's completely redha :)

That strikes me, that whatever I thought I own or lose in this world is not mine to begin with, and it's just  worldly thing anyway. The fact that I feel so much agony and pain over the past few years is because I'm still very much attached to everything in this world and I'm attached to the idea that I own things :(

That is bad.
Very bad.

So tim, please understand that sometimes Allah takes a little bit from you to see how you react to His action. Show that you are able to grow out of the pain and prove that you love Allah and His plans more than  what He gave/take from you. Build that sincerity from deep within and InshaAllah no matter what happen, you'll feel more at ease.

That's pretty much what I'd like to say in this post.
I'm just gonna attach some photos to commemorate other things that I did with my friends today :)

 

 

May Allah bless us all and protect us from any danger.

May He grant us strength when we need it most.

And may He guides us in whatever we do :) 

Alhamdullilah for the best gift today, Ya Allah 

Alhamdulillah wanastaghfirullah ... I'm officially a final year student :) 

Summer Elective: With the vampire(s)

Assalamualaikum.

(again, I'm noting this down so that I can recollect the memories when I wanted to.. ya know, like after graduation in 2019? InshaAllah. Ameen.)

Alhamdulillah I managed to spend a week with the Haematology team in Cork University Hospital (CUH). It was a great experience, one I wouldn't trade for anything else.

It all started last year? I think. I thought hard to decide whether I should do my summer elective here, in Ireland, or when I'm back in Malaysia.

So after thinking and discussing this matter with a friend, I came to a conclusion that I should complete the whole 4 weeks here. Better opportunity to spend more time getting used to the systems and the syllabus.

I applied for obsgyn, paeds, surgery, neuro, palliative and haem. But Allah has decreed that I managed to secure attachment with palliative, haem and neuro only (in that order).

So this week, I'm with the blood team (or the Vampires hihi)

Before starting the elective with them , I heard rumours about the team. How they are very stern with students, very particular about how things are, they'd snap at you if you are not reaching their expectations, they actually make someone cried and bla bla bla..

Honestly, I was a bit scared.
My hands are cold that morning.
I have sweats running down my back .. like all the time
(but maybe it's because of the heatwave in Europe hihi)

After spending a few days with the head of the team, that was rumoured to be a very 'garang' person, I got to see why she's acting like that and why people hate her.

She is a very good doctor.
An ideal one i'd say.
She adresses the patient with honorifics even when she's not around them.
She even corrected me when I was trying to present a case to her (and at that time I was not using honorifics to address them). She said it sounds disrespectful.. in which, I agree.

She treats her patients with the best care possible.
Making sure that they are feeling comfortable and sent back home.. as a happy individual.
I appreciate how she actually takes time to explain a disease / a medication / a simple form to her patients.. and she did it with a smile and in the best manner.

She treats us, the students, very seriously.
She includes us in every meetings, handovers, journal club and clinics.
she makes sure that we actually understand stuff by asking us questions ... and though most of the time we're unable to answer it, she wouldn't flip!
She appreciate hard work and dedications that you put in completing tasks given.

With H.
(Apart from the bloods, I got to know about this girl a lil more.
SHE IS SO CUTE! k I'm not a freak k)

Honestly, I aspire to be as good as her.
A doctor.
and a teacher.

I wouldn't mind to be part of that team again.
From consultants, SpR, reg, SHO and even the interns are suuuuuuper nice and cooperative.
And despite the workload that they have, they actually make time to check on us and entertain our questions if we have any :)


I'm gonna miss them, the bloodsuckers and bone marrow extractors <3 p="">Hope to see you guys again :p


She asked me about my plan after graduation. I said I might go back because my mom wants me back in Malaysia.

She said this in reply "You might wanna think about it again. If you have Ireland in your list of 'work experience', that would make it easier for you to enter other countries like US or UK. And the training here is better I think."

and to that statement, I replied: "Yeah. I think I might think about it again :) . Thank you."


So ... now. Let's work hard to graduate with honours, and maybe... apply for internship here?
Should I ask ibu first? :/  I'm in a dilemma.. again.


Let's make a lot of doa and istikharah over the year. May Allah ease my decision making process :)

"O Allah, if You know that this matter is good for me with regard to my religion, my livelihood and the end of my affair then decree it for me, facilitate it for me, and grant me blessing in it. And if You know that this matter is not good for me with regard to my religion, my livelihood and the end of my affair then turn it away from me and me from it; and decree for me better than it, wherever it may be, and make me content with it.”