rant on add maths.

heyyo blogger.

today, add maths paper la. erm.. add maths. just two simple words define as follows:

-easy: if u learn how to do it, and work on it

-piece of cake: if u've done it

-hard: if u just take a look at it

-selfdestructive: if u just stare at the paper and do nothing

-addictive: if u love it

-allergic: if u hate it

-medicine: if u are too bored

-assasination: if u try to study night b4 exam

-excuse: if u stay at home and said u wanna study it


so, what do you think? that's what addmaths means to me.
maybe some of u out there think addmaths shouldn't be included in our syllabus.
well, listen to me. WAKE UP GUYS! IT IS IN OUR SYLLABUS.
there's nothing much u can do bout it.
sure it can .. if u are the minister of education.

variance and standard deviation much?

fatimah tuut...

bios logos affect my body temperature

salam, bloggie..

minggu ni minngu second exam. dah rse bese je staying up. smlm exam math. it's ok. yakin boleh A. tpi kalau tak dpt tu bkn rezeki. arini paper biology. last night spttnye ade tusen chemistry at muknisah's tapi tak pegi. takot laa my bio paper. paper chem mcm dah flunk. xkn laaa nk flunk paper bio gak. at least bio nk 3B. tapi tdi ok la. cume kepala rase macam nk pecah.

smlm tak laa stay up pon. tido kol 10.30. tapi bgun pkol 3 tu tros mandi. maybe sbb tu la kot badan rse tak sedap je nih. pastu qiam and stadi laa cam bese tapi i put more effort and try to focus on what i read. mmg wish sgt2 bio nih dpt A. tpi ntah la. ble dah pukol 5.30 tu ibu turun utk prepare breakfast. aku msok bilik balik. tak tahan sgt2. tetibe rase menggigil and sejok2 and selsema. huhh.. tak suke mcm nih. tapi u know wat? mmg dah expect pon. dari dulu lagi bile exam je akan demam2 or at least sakit2 laa. tetibe allergic itu ini, sore throat, nausea.. mcm2 la. ayah kate probably sbb aku nih slalu nk sdpkan ati je. mentally tak prepare utk exam.
neway, exam almost over. esok add maths. at least nk dpt 3B. taknak C again and again. wat malu jerh.

till then,

FaTiMaH yg SaKeT

i'm full lah!

haiyak, bloggers..


my mom left yesterday..went to PD. my dad work in seremban today.. dunnoe why. myself..argh, damn tired. those exam days.. not over yet. look at my eyes.. swollen to bigballs. for staying and waking up early. this is it. weekend!! haha. tonite my mom's not here, so we planned to eat outside and bowls at jj. but hey, nur kasih?? haha. thats why we're still at home. tak jadik. kensel. ayah gi beli burger IJAN. seronok2. ayah orderkan utk aku burger daging special+blackpepper sauce. gah. besar gile. full sgt2 skrg.




hey faten. my internet is okey! beli modem baru larh.

somebody call 911!

salam bloggie..

yesterday my mom and the other left me and anes at home. gahhh. we had a record on trying to commit murder to each other and still she tries to let us make up?? puhleez. my mom left us around 3pm and i watch tv instead of making my sys, anes' lunch. she hasn't eat since morning and well, i know if i even help her out, i'll just gonna stood there waiting for the single word of "THANKS" and yet, nothing came out of her mouth. I BET THAT.

ya see. she's at the kitchen. idk wth she's doing there. making toast perhaps? dun care. then, suddenly she screamed my name. and i was like. WTH is going on? i ran to the kitchen and there i saw our sinks on fire. i came closer and she was standing at my back. maybe terrified by the fire. i saw it there. a pan on fire and she 'cleverly' put it in the sink filled with the uncleaned dishes and not even let the water ran down from the tap. OMG. she is sooo gonna get it from me. the flame reaches about half a meter up and about to burn the cabinets above the sink. argghh. i took a spatula and knock the tap so that the water will at least put the flame off.

thick, black smoke filled the kitchen. i stared at her. she went to the front. i glanced back to the sink. well, the dishes... melted. a brand new tupperware my mom just bought.... melted too. but yeah.. my eyes still burns. idk wat to tell my mom. i rushed to the phone and called her.

what do you think she'll say?
A. both of you.. wait till i came back
B. both of you.. pay the cost then.
C. both of you.. o dear. its ok..
D. both of you.. are you ok?

i called her. and explained everything. try so hard to make it heard as if everything was anes' fault. but still, i know, it's mine too. and you're right.. the answer is C and D. she said it's ok and asked me if either one of us are harmed. i ask anes' which looks traumatized by the accident. and we cleaned the kitchen together. and that is when i saw the tube connecting the water filter to the pipe is melted too. what we'll drink for the next 2 days? i texted my mom. she told me to boils some for the storage. the other will be settle down later. huh.. i still cant believe wat had happen. got migrain then. argh. it does hurt. and i try so hard not to pick a fight with anes'. it turns out well. she's fine. and this morning we had our breakfast at the restaurant nearby. walked there. talk a lot with her along the way. she's cool actually. and that is when i started to realise how much i had ignored her before. well.. mom told me how much i hate her since she was born. i hate babies before. ya know, when i was small. i pinch her, trying to stepped on her arms, trying to kick her butt when she's a BABY. terrible huh? lucky me, she didn't know bout that. poor her. well anes, if only you read this. i'm sorry dear. for the time i had lose not trying to get to know my own sister. i'm sorry.

p/s: we slept in mom's bed with AC turned on over the night. hahha.

congrats my sys!

wanna celebrate my sys..
she had changed
haha
USIM.. bgos2..
kakak aku byk berubah di sne
she knows it now..
mybe doa aku dh makbul
cant stand looking at her texting and talking to ajnabi
erhh.. taksuke
noktah
still
taktau camne die berubah
she told me that she overheard other people's conversation about this wrong-doings and it kinda related to her too..
mybe she realised it now..
ALHAMDULILLAH..
thank you, my rabb
thanks a lot..

cayunk awak..

hei semua.. saya nk buat pengumuman..
ehem..ehem..

SAYA SAYANG AWAK, FATEN
haha..
sbb awak baek
awak cute
awak paham saye
awak baek

did i said that twice??
forget it
but still


saye sayang awak!

fatenfaten

been waiting for you, babe!

where the hell are you?

gahh! geram2...

benjol di kepala??!!

salam bloggers..
arinih mood swings.. ntah laa.. pepagi tadi senyom2. pastu nak gi skola nangis. sblom faten blik tadi gelak2. then nmpk SK-II and NitRoGeNa, malo-malo la plak. pastu gi lepak kat port rahsia aku tuh, gelak2 ngan hanis, adekku. mse tu lah peristiwa itam ni berlaku. mse tgh jln baek punye nak sorok2, terhantok kepala kat kayu. ok la. to be honest, aku punye port kat kolam semenanjung tapi blakang pondok tuh. kire area tersorok ar gak. lagi2 klo ko dudok. memang org tak prasan ko ade. k. smbong blek. aku terhantuk kat tiang kayu tu. ingatkan jaoh lagik coz bhgian atas kolam tu mmg dh teduh ar gak kan so tak prasan sgt larh. pastu hanis brengset tol gelakkan aku. takpe2. sbar lagik nih. kitorang lepak lme ar gak. dlm stgh jam cmtu sbb tggu mak aku. pastu dh dkt kol 6 bru prasan dah terlambat. hanis cepat2 bgn nk blaa tgglkan aku. aku pon cuak arr nk kne tggl sorang2. aku berdiri je.. BANGG! bloody hell, man! sakit gilerh! maybe ade keretakan la kot kat tempurong kepala aku nih. mmg sakitnye yang amat. berpinar mate aku nih . aku pegang kepala aku. usap2 skit. whoa.. rse paneh. berdarah?? aku tnye anis, ade ape2 tak atas kepala aku. leh lak die kate tak logik ar berdarah? hah. ko ape tao. kot ko yg kne nnti ko nangis guling2 maunye. hailaa.. nih aku nk sapu minyak gamat tadi. ayah gelak je. eh. prevention better than cure kan? asal sume rse ape aku wat tak logik nih? heh.. mungkin laa kot mmg tak logik. mybe ade gegaran kat kepala aku nih yg wat aku senget skit. ape2 je lah.

betul ke?

ORANG LAIN KATE..

1 aku idop dlm denial.. yeah right!
2 aku ske salahkan org len.. always put the blame on others.
3 ego! takde maknenye nk kte pemalu la plak.
4 loner. klu org tak knl aku and aku tak knl org.. mmg haraamm nk tego.
5 allergic ngan asrama.. huahuahua..
6 BHAJETS.. bajet ke? ye la kot. ade aku kesah?!
7 hipokrit. smnjk jdik KP dh jdi poyo.
tu bkn hipokrit la. tu amanah. kang kat akhirat aku yg tgg dose.
8 cakap yang bise. haiyak. bise sgt ke. venomous punye species. hoo.. bahaye!
9 blue! tu statement dri ladies. FYI, i'm a bio student. that is what we called anatomy lah!
10 bersemangat. klu present sumthing msti stadi dlu. yolah makcik. banyak la ko nyer stadi!

segalanya..merimaskan?!

salam bloggie..

dunnoe how to start. thought today was just like the other that had passed. but..huh! it happens again man! all those yelling and crying and back to talking and saying sorries and forgiven. should i say.. I'M SICK OF IT?! this scene took place about an hour ago. sarah found sumthing she shouldn't had to, and THAT thing shouldn't be there. i sit still and just 'enjoying' my dinner when it happens. sarah is just SEVEN . how could this possibly happens?



poor ayah and ibu. totally bangang arr ko ecah! memang aku dh lme je sabar ngan ko nih. kang klu aku bersuara kang aku lak yg mengalir. arghhh.. kenapa jadik mcm nih skrg? i thought nk settle everything after ecah nyer exam. but..hell. adoii.. geram sgt2 nih. nak meletop nih. aku plak yang tension nk exam nnti. YA ALLAH! bantulah hambamu ini. aku sudah tidak mampu untuk berkata tidak ya Allah! tidak mampu untuk aku menghalang lagi ya Allah! kuatkan azamku ya Allah! tenangkan hatiku, lapangkan dadaku, berilah aku petunjuk dan hidayah-mu ya Allah!..

uih..uih..

haiyak.. bru bgn tdo tadi.. penat whoa.. ade mjlis raye PPTBS. hah? takpaham??!! oh.. PERSATUAN PENDUDUK TAMAN BUKTI SETIA... HEH. ok. smlm tice zai wat sorta open house kot. mybe rmi laa dtg.. aku pon dh menyatakan hasrat aku kpd ibu mse dlm pjlnn nk ke tsn fizik( kol 8.15 pagi, sabtu) ...ibu bagik laa.. kerana ibu pon tau dah umah tu kat mne. tetibe ade kwn mak aku kol. pastu aku didropkan dpn umah chegu rahim ( chegu tusen laa).. pastu mse balik tu kiteorg tak balik umah.. malangnye aku tros ditapau ke umah kwn mak aku.. haiyoo.. rase teraniaya tau.. dah pki baju suci nih.. muka lak dah edit bagik kudus2 je.. leh lak bawak g umah kawan die. aku pon dah takde mood dah nk g umah len. kat TTJ lak tu.

p/s : kalau2 laa chegu zai bace blog haku nih kan.. maapkan saye ye chegu!

SELFDESTRUCTION: 10 more days left!

salam bloggers.

tgh tggu bapakku pulang dri bagan pinang. entah ape yg dicarinye kat situ. konon laa nk berborak ngan anuar ibrahim. kok mamat tu layan je. ape laa ayah ni. klu gtau kawan2 aku yg politik abis tu, ngamok agaknye. hehe.

ok. tdi sye menonton nur kasih di televisyen. episod minggu ini, so-so la. dah bley agak katrina aka cat tu dtg blek. aku bru je sebot kat adek aku psl cat tu tetibe die kuar. psikik ke psycho.. lololo... dh mle merepek.. actually itulah motif aku wat blog. jux nk merepek..

neway. moving on. tak lme lagi nk exam ujong tahon. bio ngan fizik dah ready arr kot. tpi subjek2 len tu.. serius arr.. aku angkat bendera putih. mmg arr aku terlintas.

"adoh, bile nak stadi nih?"
"mak aii, takde mase tu..ok tim, esok bgn pagi2 SETADI tau.."
"ala.. penat arr. tpi sian laa plak. aku g tusen dri awal thon. 11 A's pon tak ley??"
"ko nih.. DISAPPOINTING LA!"
"dasar pemalas ko. sume tanak buat"

okeh2.. aku tau la tggjwb aku. its just that.. knape aku tak macam org len? nape aku nih POYO sgt? nape aku bajet pandai padahal...? asal timah ni bodoh sombong? nape org yg tgh menaip nih tak spend mse skrg nih utk study? nape? nape?

sumenye aku ley jawab. btol. aku tak tpo. sumenye sbb aku nih pemalas. konon laa nk tggu semangat tu dtg dulu. BLA LAA WEIYH. semangat perlu dijana bukan dinantikan. cet.. tengok tu.. cakap pandai.. buatnye tidak.. haiyoo. terok arr ko nih. PATHETIC.


muhasabah diri,
FaTiMaH ZaHRa'

05/10/09: ALHAMDULILLAH..

tak tahu nak cakap mcmne. syukur sgt2 ke hadrat ilahi. alhamdulillah ya ALLAH. aku dan shera rusman dah OKAY! die minta maaf mse pagi2 hari isnin ni. aku pon tak tahu camne nk react. sgt2 terharu. doa dah dimakbulkan ALLAH. moga2 ukhuwah kekal selamanya. amiin.

about zirah lak, no comment so far. dunnoe why terlalu sukar untuk kitorang okay balik. well, aku pon klu terserempak ngan dia takde la nk bgik salam pon. FYI, AKU TAKKAN MINTAK MAAF NGAN KO! noktah. klu pasl hal lain tu, ya. tapi bkn hal yg u-knew-so. harap ko sedar. bkn niat aku untuk aibkan ko atau malukan ko as that is what u've done. kalau ko rase berjauhan macam ni adelah perkara terbaik, aku takkan bangkang. i just feel sorry for you. aku takut ko akan hanyut jauh. ya! aku akui, terlalu byk yg kita tempuhi. our friendship, undefine. harap ko sedar ape yg ko lkkn. aku cuma mmpu doakn ko dpt petunjuk dan hidayah dari ALLAH.

hamba-MU,
FaTiMaH ZaHRa'

huih. ngantok.

bah! ha. terkejut tak?? hhehe. bese arr. aku tgh senget nih. ngantok arr weiyh. k laa. jgn lupe wudhu', bce doa tido, ngan ayatul kursi kay!

bye..

KELEMAHANKU: packing baju..

salam bloggers.

start esok ( friday) till sunday ade camp kat skola. huh.. mmg arr excited tpi I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MY ROOM! sumenye ade fungsi yang tersendiri. rse cam nak kopak je satu bilik nih bawak gi skola. geram btol. tdi baru start nk packing barang coz klu aku pack awal2, msti ade yg tertinggal. trust me, it happens ALL the time la. aku amik laa baju2 yang nak bawak.

tshirt labuh

telekung

tafsir quran

seluar

PJs

sport shoes

slippers

etc. etc.etc.

banyak laa yang penting. even comforter pon aku bawak. can't sleep without it.lepas dah siap2 tu.. aku macam.. EH?! asal byk sgt nih?! aku cakap ar ngan ayah aku, aku nk gi skola ngan die coz SEGAN gile klu bwk brg byk2 pastu tumpang orang. haha. sian cik zailan. ayah aku kate: banyak sgt ke imah ( kt umah je eh. xmacho tol) ? aku pun tunjuk arr barang yg aku nk bwk. ayah aku sengih je smbil berkata: aii..ko nk dok skola tu 3hari ke 3thn?!

aiyoo... banyak sgt ke? ayah aku kte klu nk die yg antar gi skola kol 6.20 pgi. aku tak kisah. mmg slalunye kol 5 aku da bgn. tapi ermm..tak seram ke skola tu awal2 cam tu. and anyway,

AKU NK LEPAK MANE?

aku start arr pikir balik. argh.. subuh gajah pun subuh gajah arr. janji aku tak segan esok. barang2 yg mcm org pindah rumah ni aku ltk dpn pagar asrama je kot. ok la tu. takkan arr ade lak yg nk amik baju2 aku. melampau arr tu bai!

tu je arr post aku kli nih. aku tak leh arr nk janji2 bagai kononnya takkan gune tenet la,tak on9 la. not me k. coz aku tahu aku mmg akan langgar jnji tu. faham??

till then..

TiM aka Sn